My Brain, my brain, and oh, my Brain!

To people who know me it is no secret that I have struggled with mental health problems all my life, I have up periods and down periods, but it has always been a bit of a mystery. I was always told I was being treated for depression and anxiety - my Mum was once told by one of my psychologists that I had a personality disorder - and yet on my medical notes it has bi-polar recorded.

So what is wrong with me? That is the question that has been going around in my head for a few months now - I feel a strong need to get to the bottom of it. Whenever I do read about people with depression I find it hard to connect to their stories as although I do get depressed there is a reason for it - I feel different.

A few weeks ago I was reading an article about Aspergers and it completely surprised me - it was almost like this article was written about me - of course there were differences but so much was true to me - the social difficulties, the difficulties I have with rejection, the sleep pattern, the obsessions, just everything about me...

So I went to the Dr, I walked all the way down my long road - the first time in over a year that I have been further than the letter box by myself - panic attack all the way, and I am now being referred for further assessment (for the 3rd and hopefully last time).

At 32 years old am I finally going to find some answers?

On a lighter note, pictured is Rup with our new washing line, we're very proud - it is our first experience with concrete and so far it is still standing (it's pretty straight too)! Spot the mess the badger has made of the lawn!