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Monday, 28 March 2011
Social Outcast!
Today I was sent an email with pictures to my sisters Hen do. I had really wanted to go but it was too far away from home - if I had had a panic attack and been unhappy it would have been a real downer for everyone. So now I am being silly and tearful because I feel like I have been left out and forgotten - in the pictures it looks like they had a great time and I wish I had been there. I miss out on so much, everyone goes out and has a good time and to be honest I don't really feel like a fully paid up member of my family, I'm certainly not missed when I don't attend events! I think loneliness and not being included is one of the hardest things about depression, in general people get bored of it very quickly so if you know anyone who does suffer with it just think about giving them a call, it might make the world of difference to their day :)
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{{{{HUG}}}} I do understand as sometimes I am excluded because of my wheelchair, not purposely but cos I don't want to be a nuisance xx
ReplyDeleteyou've put is perfectly Annie, I felt I was being a nuisance in the planning so I pulled out, I'm just having a bad day today and feel the regrets piling up x
ReplyDeleteBeen there, done it, got the t-shirt. You are not the only one and so I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes, afterwards you want to kick yourself for not doing something or constantly backing out just in case. It's all part and parcel of the condition and unfortunately only ourselves can do something about it. people say oh just get on with it, but it is incredibly hard when you already have panic attacks and have low esteem. As you say, unless you have it, no-one really understands - so sending you massive hugs
ReplyDeleteLots of Hugs as I really do understand from personal experience. But I am learning not to dwell on these events and try to use the way I feel to try and be more positive the next time. No easy but it does help x
ReplyDeletethanks guys, was on a real downer yesterday...but onwards and upwards, can't keep dwelling :)
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